How would you deal with crushing loneliness, depression and irony of suicidal thoughts?

I am 19, currently at university studying philosophy. i'm just as alone in a crowd as in my room. i have been depressed for a very long time previously had mental illnesses at 12, took Prozac %26amp; was in counselling until i turned 18. failed to make new friends at uni, losing contact with older ones. never had a girlfriend or kissed and the only time i had a hug was 3 yrs ago. hate university, so travel bk home every weekend though dont' live with parents anymore. spend my days on the pc or 360





most days i close my eyes and try and imagine myself in physically embrace with a girl i like and a feeling of warmth.





but it has to be said that philosophically coming to a conclusion that life is not meaningful %26amp; of finite value doens't necessarily dictate that i kill myself.





so how to live with lonliness, depression and the continual irony that i havent' yet killed myself?How would you deal with crushing loneliness, depression and irony of suicidal thoughts?
i suppose it just depends on if you WANT a relationship with someone.... because i am sure you are quite capable and its not worth telling you to go out and make friends because that is just an ignorant thing to say to someone. id say try different medicine to see if that would help you with motivation or to even just balance you out. i don't imagine philosophy makes it any easier to live.. i think people would almost be better off not thinking but its all good. i hope you can find what you need to help get you out of your sadness. good luckHow would you deal with crushing loneliness, depression and irony of suicidal thoughts?
you haven't had a hug in three years?!? aww i'm so sorry *hugs* :-) if it makes you feel any better i've never been kissed either, and i've had one boyfriend for a year. i also was diagnosed with depression, which turned out to be the severe side of bipolar disorder. you might want to see about switching up your meds- but whatever you do, don't just quit them on your own- that will only make things worse. sometimes the meds numb you out, but that's better than if you get screwed up by not taking them.





my advice: don't learn to live with loneliness- it will only make your heart cold and hardened. even though you've probably heard it a thousand times, here's one more- you can change the way things are going. i used to think that was stupid, but i finally just tried it once and it worked.





as for living with depression- the counseling has helped even if you may not think it has. try to remember some of the things and coping methods you and your dr talked about. again, talk about a new medication. these feelings could be worsened by some medicines, so let your dr know asap.





i think there's a girl out there for you- you're just waiting to find each other. but at the same time, realize that people aren't perfect and will fail you. don't let your only hope and happiness be in another person. learn to find it from yourself as well.





take care and please don't do anything dangerous! peace!
myfourth,


I understand your lonliness. I am a man that is 47 years old and after a nasty accident retired and am very lonely. I have been hospitalized for attempted suicide and I don't recommend it. The hospitalization helped but there are things that I force myself to do. I force myself to turn off the computer and go do stuff. I make little projects to keep myself busy. I do have two houses so there is usually something to keep me busy. The thing is you need to get out when the weather permits. I like to draw. I will sit by a stream and draw sometimes and it is a great conversation starter. Yes I am married and a father of two. I can be home with a house full of people and know the feeling of being alone. I call it being in my head. I think too much at times. I am on medication for depression and some other disorders. They help. If you don't see a psychiatrist currently maybe it would be a good time to seek one out. At least see your GP. If you are still at the university go to the health center and they may be able to make a refferal. The important thing is you have to be honest and upfront with what you tell them. If you feel like you want to attempt suicide tell someone. It isn't worth it. If the medical center doesn't seem like a good option then try the emergency room. They may be able to reffer you to someone that can help you with the depression.





You are young yet and the love that you desire is not hopeless trust me I am no prince charming but I found the right girl. I have been married for 25 years. Be patient as far as that goes ok? find some help for the depression first. The rest will fall into place.